More scaling

Coming into clinic each day my feelings are exactly the same... I'm terrified to go and scale, probe, explore (whatever the day calls for) on a live patient, but when they day is over I think it was fun. We did posterior scaling on wednesday and it was not very easy at all! I felt like all the other things just took a little time and I sort of got it, but this I still feel lost. My goal for the next week is to practice my loose modified pen grasp and using a rocking motion with my whole hand and arm instead of just a digital motion. I also had a hard time seeing the angulation. I really need to practice my indirect vision! Its all going by so fast! in just a few weeks we will be doing mock patients and I still don't quite understand how I'm going to clean a mouth with only one or two time experience with each skill. I really don't understand the flow of the clinic yet either. I'm afriad I'm going to get in trouble for not following protocol when I wasn't even sure what it was! I'm trying to listen and catch on! I wish there was more time to go over things. This is a great program though, and hundreds have gone on before me and made it through just fine. Am I really that slow, or do students just fake it through their first couple patients... I will find out in a few weeks I guess! Until then I'll be studying my brains out!